hello_kochi

ahck. i forgot to post for a few days. im sorry. =// this journal thing is pretty much only for my own benefit anyway.



so ive been thinking about the person i used to be. i dont think my personality has ever really changed but i think i have matured a great deal in the past 3 years. god, i remember 5th grade i was obsessed with monkeys. pff. and i would wear little bobby jack shirts. 6th grade i was more or less the same. i wore no makeup. i was socially invisiblle and i said all the wrong things at the wrong time. oh shit and i remember this kid who i liked alot for god knows why.i made the stupidest mistakes that ive ever made in my entire like....in sixth grade. it was BY FAR the worst year ever.by the end...i was this little greenday obsessed girl. ew. in 7th grade i was like that too but in a more...advanced way? i wore liquid concealer and eavy black eyeliner so i looked like i had a dripping wax face. by then i had gotten over that stupid boy that caused all the psychotic-ness oof 6th grade. i moved on to this other kid . whatever. i was all like "*oMg i LuFf hIm SoOoOo mUcH*stab im emo cause i luff him stab*"


dear god please shoot me.

hah. i also met my now best friend karlene zalkin <3 whom i love to death. we started ot rocky though [more on that later] now im near the end of 8th grade. im pretty ok now. i guess im sortof into that whole "scene thing" but really idc. dress how i want and listen to music that makes me happy. not necessarily "OmGzZzZ I lUv RoCkx3" .ew, once again. i like everything. w/e does it even matter that much anymore??? nope.


im just me. and im happy with the person i am. no more drama and trends please.just life.



but one more thing about my past. I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW THAT I WAS STUPID IN 6TH GRADE AND I DID THINGS I WOULD NEVER EVER EVER DO AGAIN. I WAS SOME LITTLE RETARDED POSER. PLEASE , DONT THINK OF THAT GIRL AS ME. IF YOU KNEW ME WHEN I WAS IN 6TH GRADE, DOOO NOOOTT THINK YOU KNOW WHO I AM NOW. please and thank you. <3


ok. so starting this friday after school. It was february 16th , a day before my birthday. I was walking out to the front of my school[hell] with karlene and i see my mom standing outside looking highly out of place ina swarm of prepubescent children clad in gold and blue. so then she sees me and runs up and starts screeching "you got in you got in" and jumping. W000000T uhhuh i got in to arts&minds school <3 heheh.



that was the beggining of my birthday weekend.


then friday night.....we decideed to go over to karlenes house for a bit and then go to sunset place. so....mmhm....it was all good until horus [-_-] called and asked if he could stop by with Queef[Calif er w/e] and Justin The Loli Hunter cause they were at Queefs house in karlenes neighborhood. sadly, we said yeah. then the night went downhill. i was pinned down by queef and loli boy while karlenebean was raped by horus. well not raped but you know what i mean. pfff child molesters. and then they call me les or some shit ....mad me quite infuriated. arghhghghgh they think theyre so much more intelligent than me. i hate that with a passion. "why are you screaming? why do you have so many irrational fear" ant they give this look yknow!!?!??! it just screams "what a tard" . i shll express more on the issue of "people think theyre better than me" at a further date.


anyway, so horus queef and justin jumped the back gate out of the house after thy squirted glowstick juice all over karlenes room and made it glow like outer space and when my mom rang the doorbell. this was already at like......8:00 and we still planned on going to sunset. that was when i dropped an egg on karlenes sink and tehn triedc to flush it down the toilet and it got clogged. heh heh. ok so im a little retarded. sue me. we fixed it though. in the end we woound up at sunset at about 9:15 and then we left 1 hour later. it felt like we were there for about 10 minutes . -_- saturaday is a bit of a blurr to me....oh yeah! we rented like....4 movies [karlene and i] and watched them alll <3 then she slept over.then sunday morning she went home after we watched this movie that i love called "now & then"



ok ok so my weekend was sufficiently boring. its monday today and all i did was get 2 new books, rollerblade, et food,and draw XDbut i guess it was ok :D

saturday moring was my long awaited audition at arts and minds highschool<3. i auditioned for visual arts and i think i did good :D the lady interviewing me kept smiling and nodding and she got all excited when i told her i wanted to maybe pursue a career in commercial art. >:D ALSO...there was this packet that we had to fill out and it asked "why should we accept you into the school?" so i wrote "i have a passion for art" and when she saw that i wrote that she circled it and told me "i love that word. thats great!" yesssss. <3<


mmhm. well....most of this weekend was spent worrying about my friendship with karlene....[more on that later] but yes. friday night was spent with kirsten. we went no where lol we hung out and prepared for my audition. then kirsten came along with me to my audition and after that....we got ice cream and went to her house. we failed misserably [yet again] at seeing ariel and kirsten nerly broke his window for the 82975887572th time. i dont knock. ever. -_-" hah. well yeah. anyway, kirsten and i spent most of our time outside on hre street skateboarding. lolol i know sounds cheesy but really we did. no we dont like sk8er bOis LyKe OmGawHH. RoCk OnnnNnNn! ew hell no. but yeah. and i fell. argh. i was standinbg on the skateboard and it just flew out from underneath me and i fell flat backwards onto my back....and hit my head. haha i had a little bump on it lie in those cartoons , afterward. XD kirsten laughed at me -___-" but then i told her "kirsten thats bad karma!! youre going to fall too and land on your squishy butt and bounce ....and itll hurt! >:D" and she did. :] rofl. meanwhile....while the auditioning and skateboarding was going on....my best friend karlene was having a mental breakdown. see, kirsten, karlene and i are three bestfrineds and we have been a trio like that for about a year.. but lately...karlene non onger likes it to be all 3 of us. either her nd kirsten...or me and her. but neveer all 3. ^_^ i really dont see why * sigh anyway....karlene sometimes gets a wee bit jealous when i go with kirsten on weekends so she was angy with me. also for other reasons...which i forget at the time. but yeah so after spending saturdat acting like an idiot and skateboarding....i went to karlenes house to sort it all out with her.

we're all good in the hood now :D <333 iloveyou karlene.


mhm. okso she slept over at my house and sunday morning we attempted to go see ariel again. he lives like...20 ft away from kirsten and about 3 blocks away from me. so kirsten and him are within walking distance. on the way over...we were walking and we heard like....4 different sirens. so we ran screaming "holy shit ariel is dead! omg what if kirsten died!?!?! ahhh maybe martin was murdered!!" actually some chick had just overreacted and there was a small fire lol fals alarm.anyway yeah..so we got there and i though for sure ariel would come out of his pot-infested backyard this time....since karlene was there and hes a shallow douchebag[at times] and always wants to rape karlene. HAH but this time....she was dressed....dun dun DUN!!! ....sloppy. :O yeha i know lol. but he wasnt home -_-" so we went back to my house and had lesbian sex. hahhaha just kidding. actually...my mom picked us up from kirstens street and took us to borders. now heres the part where i bitch about my mom : ARGHH SKLJHGKDJHKADFKH shes so annoying. >:| she wont stop nagging me about school for like.....2 minutes. aggh. and she cant do anything. we've had our car for almost a year and she still barely knows how to unlock both doors. anyway...yeah once we got to borders....we saw these friends of ours there. i was in a really pissy mood due to all my mothers bitching. but yeah. we saw friends there. we went over and i hadnt seen anyone all weekend but karlene and i hadnt gone anywhere so ui asked my mom "go pick michael [my brother] up and then come back for us" so she really really really pissed me off because she said no and flipped out at me bitching at me about my school work [Wwithch id ALREADY completed]. and its not like shed been running me all around miami like most weekends so it was relaly no big deal for her to just leave us here for like 10 minutes and ocme back but NOOO. so then we got into a huge screaming match in the car and when i got home i was in a really foul ood. but karlene cheered me up by letting me draw eyes and a nose on her chin and look at her upside down. hahahha it was so funny <3 i love karlene she is awesome.

well thats how stuff went. ^_^now im here...doing nothing and eating food<3

erm yeah. kirsten is at my house :D we spent hours doing nothing and laying in the road. we were looking at clouds and i saw one that was like a painting of zeus. i think it was a message from the greek gods. 0_0 yes yes well...this week has been unusually boring. and this is the FIRST FRIDAY that i havnt gone to sunset place. karlene went though. she probably did lots of drugs and isnt going to tell me...cause shes karlene. ILL KILL HER. drugs are bad >.< nigguh im straightegde. ^.^ ok ok. well i continue to see and obsess over "the little mermaid"....even though hes a ghetto ho33. <33 NOT GOOD ! ACTUALLY BAD!! but im stupid *sigh. i wnt him baaad (like..."baaa" sheep <3)hahah


okie that is all. . . EAT YOUR VEGGIES.

so ive just started a livejournal. ^-^guess ill begin

agh currently things are so fxcking boring. It is xhristmas break and all my friends are away on vacation. T_T seems like im the only one left here doing nothing. >.> The little mermaid fxcking used me. WHORE. >:| well im over it now....see!? anyway.....yeah. grr i have some dumb science project to do on top of all the other hard stuff too. i mean....what kind of teacher does that to students!? evil i tell you.EVIL.


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im just in a bad mood normally im quite sweet if i do say so myself.